i am a fat, disgusting piece of crap. 800 friggin' calories today. i want to die. i feel so bloated...
it all started this weekend when i saw the bf. he said i was looking too skinny and then i had to go and be a dumbass and pass out in front of him. you know when u stand up too quick and then all of a sudden its all stars, then black? yeah...
so now he's being all chivilrous and trying to make me eat. he left food in my car at school today cuz' i had a 6-9 study hall tonight (after a 7 hour class day...). i think it was cuz i was so tired, my self control was lacking majorly. i am a piece of shit. i lost 8 damn pounds and i'm throwing it away because i'm tired?!!
well i better at least try to sleep now, more self control should emerge tomorrow... i hope.
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